Hey there! Life is pretty sweet right now huh!? Freshmen year and you got cornrow designs on your head just like your favorite player Allen Iverson. Looking good my man. I like the Jesus piece and the Enyce sweat suit! Mai you looking real 90’s right now walking around school with your Discman. Coach held onto jersey number three so you can rock it during the season! Your blessed young man! You have two parents despite their divorce both who managed to show you unconditional love. Mai your going to need this unconditional love later on this story, but you don’t know it yet…seems like you have your whole life ahead of you. You do! You will be amazed at what you accomplish.
Just know that God will ALLOW you to be BROKEN first. You have to be broken in order to achieve greatness! Mai I know you probably are not listening. Why would you? You and Darryl are waking up and shooting 1000 jump shots a day over the summer. The ball never leaves your hands. I know it seems inevitable that your dreams will come true. I need you to listen to me! All the dreams and energy you put into this one goal will be shattered into a million pieces. All you know is that you played organized Bball since you were five and that you just got MVP at Eastern Invitational Bball camp. Scouts are calling the house and you’re a freshmen! You feel great about that right! Your school is turning into a national powerhouse right before your eyes and your dream to be a high school star looks promising. Well I am here to tell you that you will never be BBall Star in high school. At least not Varsity. Hell you will barely even get to play in any varsity games! No one is saying you can’t play. Your good man! Yeah you need to work on your three point shot and learn to take more open jumpers, but your passing is impressive and you can get to the basket with ease! But Listen to me! I know it hurts and it’s hard for you to see that your high school career will be limited. Shoot that’s even hard for the people and coaches around you to see. God sees it!
Trust me God knows what he is doing. Just as junior year comes around you will get the sickest you have ever gotten in your life. Yes, your most important year! This is after your mother paid extra money to put you through professional conditioning over the summer. You will wonder was it in vain? Your mother’s love and support is never in vain!
It will be tough for you because scouts who already know who you are will wonder how come you are not playing your junior year? This will be extra tough because they asked you why you weren’t playing when you were completely healthy your sophomore year because they know your talented. The coach will simply say, “Mai is not ready”. Mai this will seem so unfair to both you and your family. You will wonder to yourself other sophomores get to play on varsity?
It is true! You should have gotten more playing time, but Mai I need you to let go of this moment! You need your strength for what is yet to come and why we are meeting here in this moment! Junior Year Coach will tell you before the season starts…”Mai you have a chance to start this year”! In your first few games it will seem that this will be a great season. After one of the biggest national tournaments Coach says “you showed I could trust you out there”. Your time has come! You got this man!
Listen Coach I am trying to push through but coach this hacking cough is getting worse. I don’t think you hear me! For real coach… I really can’t run up and down the court at all. I know it’s not your fault that I am sick …but I am just a kid. I need you. I need you tell me that everything is going to be ok. Damn you really must not hear me! I look up to you as a father figure man! What did I do to deserve this coach? How come I feel like you forgot I am your team? What did I do wrong.. Mai snap out of it! Listen to me. Stop re-living that moment! Its not your fault and that is all that matters! You will have to sit in complete humiliation on the bench and watch your school have their best season ever. Your teenage ego will be destroyed as people come up after the game and say, “Mai how come you are not playing”. You will reply simply in quiet voice “i’m sick…I don’t know what’s going with me man”. Mai lets rewind and pay attention.
I need you to see how much your mother loves you. You knew she loved you, but you did not know she would be there when doctor after doctor didn’t know what was wrong. She would go lengths to find out if it was allergies, pneumonia, or asthma that was making you sick. She would hold you night and day as tears of confusion and pain soaked her sweater. She would find the remedy for you to heal. Together you will find that the diagnosis was not as big as it seemed, but that Mai you needed to experience being broken in life! Why so you could become great later!
Your father! The man who sat at every game and was the loudest in the gym when you scored. Your biggest supporter is going to move to Michigan and leave the house you grew up in. Another major blow! You are obsessed with that house. When you become a man you are going to drive by stare at the house remember when your family was all there together as a child! I know it is hard. But even with your father in Michigan he is going to find a way to be at every major event in your life and cheer you on! Listen to me. That house is NOT your SUPPORT SYSTEM! Your support system never will fail you. The FAMILY that GREW WITH YOU in that house is your support system! Although your father is a man he has never been afraid to cry. He leads by example! He will empathize and strengthen your spirit in ways only a man can. Here is what I want you to see…this defining moment. Listen to your father when he tells you that he has fallen many times in life and had to reinvent himself. Always hold onto this moment. In it he will take you to the airport in his car and ask you to tell him why you will be successful in life. You tell him ” Because I’ve been broken, but i’m still here?”. He will tell you in the same biggest fan voice he did at all your Bball games “that is my boy”. He will then laugh and smile at the same time in away that only he can while giving you a fist-pound!
You have so much life ahead of you, but let’s keep it real though. Mai you don’t take school seriously enough we both know this. You put all your effort into bball. When Rutgers-Newark comes recruiting you to play it is already too late. Not just because of your grades because they will be willing to work with you on that. The reason is you have a GREATER PURPOSE. You will be confused because when Rutgers comes knocking it seems like an affirmation of all those years you put into BBall. Who knew being BROKEN as a teenager will ALLOW you to become straight a student in community college. Mai music will become your new passion and the focus you acquired, as an athlete will help you become a great music artist. Your lyrics will touch people’s heart and you will now have the strength to inspire many others. Believe it or not you will graduate from your dream college University of Maryland and get a Masters later on from Temple University. I am talking directly to you right now so you can heal and truly understand what your about to go through! Realize your dreams were small compared to what you will accomplish later in life! Realize that you did use bball as a tool to take you where you dreamed of always going! You will always love bball. Hey look Mai… I still play now in my 20’s. As far as our purpose we just had to reinvent ourselves or should I say myself since we are the same person. I am here for you and want you to know my purpose is greater than I could have ever imagined! Peace youngin!
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